it’s been a while. Too long.
It’s time though, to get back into writing, and listening. Reflecting. Not forgetting what I’ve heard, but doing it.
I believe taking time to write down what the Lord speaks to me helps me to grow. To remember what He speaks to me, so it doesn’t just float in one ear and spiral out the next.
I’ve decided to challenge myself to write again on my journey of surrender. What the Lord speaks, and to prayerfully ask for grace along the way so He might transform me more into His likeness in each of these areas in which I fall short.
And if anyone stumbles upon this, may you be blessed and enriched as you seek to follow the Lord also. For nothing happens by accident.
Today, as I lay down, sick. Weak. I was reminded of what I once heard years ago by a fellow sister in Christ, “Disappointments are His appointments.” And being sick right now has been, well, let’s say “several” disappointments. And it is an important appointment for me, to be lying here, weak and not able to do all the millions of things I want to do. For it is here alone that I can have this very important appointment. It is here I can quietly reflect on years past, and all the things the Lord has been trying to speak to me and I’ve been too busy trying to make sense of everything. Too busy trying to do something for Him, trying to serve, trying to be a blessing.
All my efforts are in vain, when I am not listening. For today the Lord truly encouraged me with Jesus and his baptism. How he went to John, who didn’t think it “made sense” that Jesus was baptized by him. Here too I am encouraged that He has been asking me to do what I don’t think “makes sense”. To walk by faith, things won’t make sense, I won’t be able to understand or see clearly here but walk in faith without seeing and trusting that He knows. He sees. It is enough to me that He knows. He cares more than I could ever understand.